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I Looked for What Was Wrong


Wednesday, November 13, 2013

I looked for what was wrong

some of us do

educational training

the rigidity of classical music

right from wrong

a habit

instinctual protection

watch out

huge variation

so many systems

finding the flaw

from the beginning

every place you look

the human condition

I am good at it

especially myself

I realized as a mother

finally

the difference

a little boy standing before me

say one, two, three, four, five

crying

confusion

what am I doing

positive or negative

a difficult perspective

how it’s received

what is this purpose

life

survival

beautiful little beings

where is the balance

now

finally

I am aware

the pressure on myself

all my life

everyone

everywhere

perfection

protection

watching

a defense mechanism

relentless

a very bad habit

hurting everyone

unintentional

especially myself

not what I wanted

trying to care for the world

the people on it

driving south on the freeway

Saturday morning

6:00 a.m.

almost alone

light arriving

replacing the dark

bright pink clouds

blazing orange

beautiful shining gold

massive Pacific Ocean

lying peacefully to the right

just hanging out

silence

there is nothing more to say